THE HOOK IN MY HEART

Problems don't come by chance, I allow pains to cultivate a part of its crop in my heart, now the hook in my heart is unbearable for me, it will cost me my life and it will be difficult if I try to pick the hook off my heart without hurting my heart.
I should never have allowed self deficiency,weakness,fear,delirious thought and pride plants all this hook in my heart, I should have been bold enough to tell you how I feel, I should have told you the real answer when you ask me " why is the sun standing alone, and the moon has stars that add beauty with him in the sky". I should have tell you the answer, am so sorry i mess up not telling the answer to your question! You left my presence not bothered by my "NO" answer. You knew very well I had the answer to your question, now look at the rate my heart is palpitating by the day, look at the hook that's growing rapidly in my heart. Have search the four corners of the world looking for you, you left me without a trace, you took off your searching signals, I can't access you again, I can't communicate with you any more, I can't log in through you again, you blocked all server connecting you and i, I love you so dearly but I refuse to allow the love in my heart to roam around you, I was loving you in dark. You came to pull my dark love to light, but I refuse because of my childish behavior, because of my shyness, maybe am too weak to confess my love before you, in all of this i mess things up with a chanced placed on me. You left me and my pride heart to build on the hook of pains costing my soul to personal hatred. She drop me a letter that says " yes I know you are scared to tell me how you feel about me, I came to ease the hook in your heart by using the sun and moon as an example so i can have you but you blow the chance away, my "yes to your love" would have depends on your correspondence to the parable, I wanted to let you know that... You are not like the sun that stands alone, you are a moon and the stars with you is me, you are not alone. Oooohh i cry 😢, so she knew the meaning to this secret parable, what have I done to my self, have thrown my happiness away because of pride of a single answer.. This has be the hook in my heart, is impossible to take the hook off my heart and is difficult to live with the hook..